I am very run down as it is and really should not be doing more than basic every day things, but I feel so useless and fed up if I do that. I am really exhausted and not coping well and I think I try to do more to try and ignore how bad I feel and to stop my mind wandering! I would love to be able to go to the respite place in Scarborough, I have not been for over a year, but there is not the time and it is not fair to Rob and Emily.
Had to get D to take Emily to school as I feel too dizzy and ill to drive. Feel bad for not being able to take Emily to school. I am struggling at the moment anyway and I suppose it was silly to go out, I am always saying no to Emily but did something for myself that can't be right. Not sure what to do or how to cope, can't stay in bed all the time :-( Emily was quite happy and she got to walk to school, she wants D to pick her up too!
Cannot write any more at the moment have to go and rest whether I like it or not.